Ministry at this very moment is the best and the worst. I've had grand visions of what the Lord was going to accomplish through us over the last decade. I've been puffed up and cocky. Reality: I am nothing. I do not deserve the joy that serving others brings me. I am unworthy of the calling BUT I am grateful to have been called.
Tonight, I am pulling the plug on myself and everybody else. Successful or not, we never enlisted to gain glory for ourselves but for HIM alone.I could list a thousand of excuses for the why's and the why not's, tell you tales that would make your toes curl, air my side of the story.....But what's the point? We love our Savior. We have on numerous occassions failed Him and the dear souls we seek to serve, but He is a kind and lovng God. He has dusted us off, cleaned up our messes and healed wounds. He has opened windows and slammed doors. He even laid on my husband on the floor of Chickfila and said "REST!" I love my Savior!!! Where He leads me, I will follow.
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20